YOU ! yess you over there,love

and today. yes today with the date : wednesday 26.01.2011.

i finally got the chance to talk to you. well, it may not be a smooth conversation but put that aside. heyy, i did actually talk to you brothahh. mann, do you know how much i melted inside ? its like my heart was pounding faster than a cheetah speed and dayyum it melted waaay waay melt-er than ice cream. LOL,

talking to you and seeing your smile was the best thing that ever happened to me lovahh lovahh. and yess, im looking forward to hearing your "PELAT RR". wee~

we often bump into each other but rarely talk to each other. with the fact that you APPROVED ME ON FACEBOOK, it made my day dudee. seriously i was happy as hell.

we may not have any relationship but seriously, i love you as hell. sumpah dohh ! hish,

so yeahh, go fuck yourself !

yeah saya tahu saya HOT. pfft !

but dont have to be soo fucking sial lahh .

i appreciate the fact that you like me, thankyouu.

but dont have to make stories that im ohh-soo-coupling with you lahh bitch !

aku benci kauu.

dah elok2 aku baik dengan kau,

sekarang dah BENCI/ANTI ngan kau. ish,

why'd you have to be soo annoying.

sekarang kalau ehem ehem tauu,

camne aku nak dapat dye wehh ?

mesti takleh punyaa.

KAU PUNYA PASAL !

sejak bila pulakk aku couple ngan KAU ?

KAU TU DAH LAA SENGET !

siapa yg jadi awek kau mmg malang ahhh.

selekehh sial !

celaka punya jantan !

so there was this guy at uptown,
my mum's doing this buisness or whatever. so she usually hangs at danau kota.
so then her buisness partner (sort of) parked her car somewhere there. so then when they finished at about 8 or 9 liddat, she saw this guy. he was about to set up his gerai.
so she said "sorry bang, taktau abang start awal kat sini. sorry ehh ?"
dont know what came into him, he was being all rude saying "taktau apenyaa ? dah 5 tahun aku meniaga kat sini dah pukul 9 dah nii takkan tak tau lagi ? takpayah nak sorry2 sangat lahh. "

she was all angry and stuff. her mind was like, screw calm and get angry. so she answered " kan saya dah cakap sorry ? manalah saya tahu abang nak start pukul berapa ? bukannya saya selalu kat sini ". so then her groupies were backing her up and start answering2 and stuff.

i mean, WTF maan ? your parents sent you to school to be an educated kid. even if you're not smart so atleast be more respectful among you humans lahh. is that so bloody hard ? if i was there, i could've punch and kick him to death !

ALL THE SINGLE LADIESS !

so now im officially a single lady.

but IM NOT AVAILABLE!

as my heart is taken by this cute guy at school. *melts

anyways, to my sweet lovely ex,

its up to you if you still take me as your girlfriend but darla,

on my side, were done.

so yeah you might call me a bad person,

but im doing this for my future. OUR FUTURE.

so be thankful ?

wanna call me a bad person ? so be it, IM BAD !

im following MJ's footsteps.

" you know im baaad ! im baad " LOLS

imma bitch. OFFICIALLY !

so today i was on the phone with ze guy i always talked about ? hmm, and so he was chit chatting like always. so then came to the point where he said "baby i believe you with all my heart. 100%" so then i said, "do me a favour ? dont' believe a hundred percent" and he asks me whyy . so then i answered " because im a human being and human make mistakes ". he was like oookay. so then i said, "baby, im sorry". he asks me whyy. so then i said "just forgive me ?" so he's like all determined to know why i did that and he wants to know my reason for it and blahh blahh. so then i was like " issokay, you dont have to know why. just forgive me and forget whatever happened. now im gonna take a shower, do my homework and then go to sleep okayy ?" he was doing his silent treatment. so i was like "since you have nothing else to say, soo bye". i hung up the phone.

i mean you would do the same aite ? especially when somebodys done talking to you. so right that instance you'd just back off. especially during a convo. so, this is what im bloody doing ! *sigh

so then he texted me saying " fine i wanna say sorry too. i think im gonna go drunk and drop myself off my motorcycle. dont text or call me ". i didnt reply. i mean would youu ? after you've repeated soo many times that the thing you hate most is a drunk guyy. so he texted me another message saying " soo this is how it works ? so you dont love me no more. you dont even care of what im doing. you wont text nor call me. fine "
so i replied saying, " YOU WERE THE BLOODY CULPRIT whom told me not to text nor call you. so i didnt ! and now you wanna say this and that about me. if i did reply or call you, i wouldnt wanna be the person to be blamed. plus you said you were going to be drunk so go on , and stop saying that i didnt love you or whatever ".

and now he calls me saying that "okok fine, i wouldnt want us to fight" and stuff. and he still wants to know the reson for me saying sorry. so i was like " whatever. just give me time for me to take my shower, do my homework then lay myself on bed. so that i'd be ready for anything and end it with sleeping and not get soo tensed about it."

so now were kinda like in a rough situation. lets just say were on a bad climax. so now, *sigh. i dont know alriiight ?? i told you not to believe me 100%. just, i dont know.. DONT TALK TO ME ! ;/

tudung ??? emm emm,

and so that time, the first time masuk sekolah. puan raja told me " em kena pakai tudung lahh nanti ye ? "
so i gave her THE LOOK. you know, the TAK PUAS HATI LOOK ! hahah,
so my mum asked " memang diwajibkan ke or tak actually ". so she explained that it wasn't WAJIBULGHUNNAH punn. the only reason that we have to wear it punn because to elak kes BULI. so im like, "so its up to me ? HO YEAH !"

so then that day this guy tegur "kau bila nak pakai tudung ni ?". im like, "emm, tahun depan kott ?". then dalam hati sebenarnya dah termalu. but still, bukan saya sorang tak pakai. yang lain lain tuu ? kenapa saya je yang anda perasan ??? THIS IS UNFAIRR !

and now im thinking, maybe i should start wearing. but di sekolah sahaja yee ? di luar, manabolehh ! haiyoo. bukan lahh never. its just that i will wear and tak bukak-bukak. but that day will come. when that time comes, it means saya repent sudahh ! hahha,

12.01.11 - merentas desa !

penat giloss wehh. it was serious shit tiring. well ofcourse there's warming up but knowing me, ofcourse lahh we laughed while others were busy stretching sana, stretching sini. and our chit chatting never stopped. jumpa saja, cakap macam takde masa lain je nak cakap en enn ? hahah,

we ran, then jogged. then pancit. pastu boleh pulakk singgah kedai beli 100 plus. hahha, tika and balqis saja saksi because they were both with me. LOL

mieya mula-mula kata nak lari sama-sama. but then, tiba2 selit sana sini then hilang. nano punn sama. dah mula2 tu lari dengan kitorang. then kata semput lahh sangat kaan ? so then dye punn lesap kemana. FIEYA PUNN ! haish, suma pengkhianat. hahahah,

so then lepas lari2 sume, dah habis merentas hutan apa kejadahh suma uhh, we went lepak-lepak-ing at medan selera. me, mieya and tika. syok gilaa beli air. amik shortcut lalu masjid. sedap je lalu tak tutup aurat kan kita kaan ? kau tak lahh tika. i mean me and mieya lahh. kepala terdedah. dapat dosa free2 je enn ? hahah,

hafiz bleyy pulakk hisap rokok dekat belakang masjid uhh. guess what was behind us ? bilik untuk jenazah uhh. hahha, dye sebenarnya nak mengingatkan kitorg kepada mati. hahah,

then we were as noisy as hell at the medan selera. then on the way balik mieya lapar pulakk. so beli lahh apam balik ( spelling tu entah betul ke tidak ). tika and mieya were talking about parents issues. bapak aku itu lahh, bapak aku ini. then pakcik  yang jual uhh, comment ahh sume sume enn ? biasalahh. the adults would definitely be on the parents side. telling us that melawan ibu bapa tu dosa sume sume tu laa. so then tika boleh pulakk comment2 sume enn ? hahah,

so balik-balik je, pintu belakang tu pulakk tutup. heeesh ! then panjat2 ahh bukit. hafiz lepas ahh. then nasib dye dahh slow talk dengan pakcik guard tu, then the door was open. so yaaay dapat masuk tanpa panjat memanjat. wakakakka.

so i guess that ends the BUHH-LOGG story for noww. so, bubbye :)

11.01.11

selasa lepas, our dearest iylia zul went off to korea. and when i say korea, yess i mean KOREA. to all you korean fans, envy her. LOL
anyways, we miss you wehh ! cepat2 lahh balik. kerusi kau dalam kelas tu kosong ajee (cehh, as if she's in my class).
don't you dare forget us time dekat korea sanaa. jangan lupa faten pesan suamii. hahha,
nyanyi lagu sekolah tauu, because tu je yang boleh remind you of us.

she left on 11.01.11 at about 12am. so during the day, she went to school. semua mata dah berair2. yelaa, sedih ot ! kawan nk pegi jauhh-jauh tak ajak pulakk tu. hahha,

anyways, ingat ! KITORANG DI SMKBI (geng2 kita jee) RINDU SAMA KAUUU. muaah muaah, hahah

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i envy those pretty/beautiful/hot/cute girls out there,

it makes me somehow feel like " aww mann, i wish i was one of those kinda girls "

and when people praise me,

i'd be like " yeaaah riight, you must be blind "

its not that im not thankful its just that,

i feel so, left out. (sort of)

those hot legs..

so i was talking to my mommah one day,

and yess, i talk/chit chat with my mum like everyday just about EVERYTHING.

anyways, we were talking about my length of wearing shorts,

so i was like, "mum, how do we make my legs grow a lil' bit bigger ?"

"why would you want it to be bigger when everyone else wants it smaller?"

"well, i want my legs to be something like miley cyrus or somethin' so that when i wear shorts, it makes me feel hot (eventhough its not)"

"issokay hun,  yours will grow soon, just be thankful of what you are and stop trying to grow so fast"

and then i felt somehow 10% better and the other 90% is, I STILL WANT HOT LEGS.

rayban issues. *sigh

since our current popular trend is "RAYBAN SPECS",

i want one of those as well !

it's not like i  have no life and so i want what others want,

its just that it's something that im in need of.

wait, that still makes me feel like i have no life. LOL

but who-the-fakk caress ?

its my life aint it ?

so just deal with it, youu haters.

and yea, i love you loverss of mine (if there's any)

so i told my mom about wanting one of those raybans,

and she was like "okay",

so im like "hell yeah !"

but then came the "but..."

and im like *sigh

so she continued saying "you can have it but with YOUR OWN MONEY.

and ofcourse by that she meant SAVING. yeesh.

but then again im like "heyy, atleast she didn't nag about it aite ?" so im okay with it

I LOVE YOU MOM !

hayley williams :O

if i had the opportunity to meet you face to face,

all i could say is "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh"

you've made me speechless with your amaazing voice.

you're my idol womenn !

and i love youu so much.

and no, i dont swing both ways.

and im a hundred percent sure that im straight. LOL

i miss youu kawan ;(

nampak itu aweks with the specs on ? she's nurul aqilah bt. abu bakar. a friend of mine since form 1 sampaiii form 2. and until now lahh senang cerita. were best buds. but now since dah tukar2 sekolah, its so long since we met. its been like forever.

babe, i miss you. bila mauu jumpa ? kau dah laa transfer sampai ke hujung tanjung putrajaya sanaa. takboleh jauh  lagi kee ?

she moved there so sekolah sana jelahh terus. she went to a govern school as well. and ofcourse, first day at a govern school is like whaaat onii. malas nak cerita lahh. senang cerita, macam taiik ! not really macam but memang

anyways, ni kalau jumpa confem bisingg2 sampai gegar duniaa !. well, you know how noisy we are. smpai at SB dulu, we were known for the most noisiest and craziest gang in the history ! hahah, but thats a compliment aite ?

im sorry cass ! for doodling on your face.

facts about girls.

we are constant energy.

we evolve, we change shapes, we continue.

we are more than just skin and bones.

our whole self is greater than the skin we wear and the way our body curves.

and the way freckles adorn our bodies.

we are neverending.

 

“I don’t know why but I’m always prepared for the worst when something good has happened. It’s like when things get good, it’s too good to be true. I always leave some space for me to fall back on. Sometimes, bad times are good because it’s like when things are at its lowest point, it can only get better.”

im trying to sleep, but the voices in my head are too loud, and im remembering all these thing that i've done. so i turn to my side and face the wall, and breathe slowly. close my eyes, open them, close them once more. i see his face now, you know, the boy i told you about. now, i know i wont be able to sleep. i suppose this is why most people are insomniacs; the voices wont go away, the memories keep coming back, and people haunt them in the darkness of the night. i turn the lights on, sit on the edge of my bed and cry. just a little bit, just to make it easier to breathe. i turn the lights off and try to sleep again; and its going to be a long night.

london, paris, new york wait for me !

yess yess, im one of those freaks who are dying to go on an overseas vacation . its not like im desperate, its just that i feel like living myself here with everybody knowing me and judging me is too stressful. it's like everybody's bullshitting something that aint true. and that sucks.

anyways, paris, new york or maybe london would be my aiming. especially paris. idk why, but its just that im in love with paris somehow. everytime my friends talk to me about their trip to paris or wherever, it just makes me feel more and more covinced to go there.

who knows ? maybe there's a hot french guy waiting for me ? LOL. and knowing that paris is labeled as a shopping heaven, it just makes me feel much more excited to go there. weehee~

sunway moments.

lets recall my holiday activities.

one of it was enjoying ourselves at sunway lagoon.

and no, there was no parents. we were kinda "independant" for the day.

there was me, syaz and fala. thats it !

we had so much fun riding the slides and shouting like hell. well, that was only me and syaz. fala didn't.

infact, she was the victim in between us shouting freaks !

ooh, there was this time when we entered, the scream park was on our left. and there was this so called mascot kinda guy, dressed up as a ghost. and all he had to do was attract peoples attention and do scaaaaryy act. but FAILED !

the funny thing is that, at the end of our journey in sunway, we passed scream park again, and while waiting for syaz to alter her sandal rosak ! which belongs to fala. LOL.

then we had our vain moments on our way to sunway, on our way back and at fala's house. wee~

maths ? that aint me.

soo, probably 50 or maybe 70% of humans in the world HATE this subject. it starts with M and it ends with S. you dont have to guess . its not that hard. just think, what do you hate most in the world ? i'd say MATHS ! because somehoww, it the hardest thing for me. and failing it is not something i should be amazed about. ever since it got harder and much more complicated, i hated it. to say that i hated it from day one would be a total lie. cause i don't ? but that was back then when i was one of the nerdy math expert starting from 7 years old untill standard 2. when standard 3 starts, i hated it so much that i feel like killing myself everytime a math teacher comes into my class. because i could not answer a single question. it was so hard that i felt like dying. teehee. over reacting much ? yeah, i agree. but that's just how i express my feelings when it comes to math. and i think the government should've banned math subject because people hate it !

and today. the first day we start learning a lil' bit of something. like sejarah, geography, bahasa, english and math. you know what ? its been 6 years that i havent passed my math and couldnt even get one question right but today, i broke a record. i actually loved it ! soo yeahh, thats kinda weird. nowonder the day started of with a bad weather. it was a sign that god had given me, "LIKE WOAHH ! KIKI SURYA ACTUALLY ANSWERED A MATH QUESTION WITH THE RIGHT ANSWER !" bhahhahahhah, and thanks to you tr. suria. and no, he aint related to me at all. not by blood nor whatever it is. LOL. but yeah, i did ! and im so proud of myself. it was a feeling that i've never felt before. the truly meaning of happiness. i  totally hoped that i'd do well on PMR this year. *sigh ; wish me luck you guyss !? amiiin.

kthbai.

2011 sudaa !

2011 marii marii.

tommorow jejak je depan gate sekolah, satu langkah jee, dah officially jadi budak form 3 !!

aiyoook, tua sudahh.

i still wished PMR dihapuskan.

everybody's having high hopes on me.

takut hajat mereka tidak kesampaian. nauzubillah.

i take back my words since every perkataan is a doa.

so im gonna think positive.

SAYA AKAN DAPAT 8A ! amiiiiiiiin.